So. I’ve been thinking and praying recently. When I was in Master’s Commission, I felt led to go out into the wilderness, camp, and fast until God told me He was done. I would have done that to seek His face, His love, His will. Guess what I didn’t do in Master’s Commission?
This call keeps coming back to me. I feel led to go do this. Life keeps preventing me. This year, after my honeymoon and vacation for another’s wedding, I won’t have anymore vacation time left. So, I can’t do this this year.
Here’s what comes to me with this call. I was prophesied over that I would go all over the world, spreading the gospel. This is something I’ve always felt called to as well. So, that struck home with me. That confirmed that call. So why the trip to the wilderness?
Jesus went to the wilderness before starting His ministry. Now, I’ve got this revelation of what Paul did when he started his ministry. He went, immediately after Jesus revealed Himself to Saul (Paul), into Arabia. But! Not to seek the counsel of men… This leads me to believe he went into the wilderness too.
After the wilderness, I think I’m going to be trained (through school and seminary). But I can’t be sure if that either! For, God hasn’t told me yet. I don’t know for sure what my call is, but I know following this call will be the beginning of my life lived for Jesus.
I do not know what will happen when I go to the wilderness, but I know that I am called to go to it. I know I can’t ignore that call. I’m seeking the counsel of other Christians here. How do I follow this leading without losing my job? Unpaid leave, maybe? Should I even be afraid of such a thing? I’m stuck on the “how” instead of just moving.
“Seek first His righteousness and His kingdom, and all this will be given to you as well.” (paraphrase from a verse in Matthew…)